For some reason, mah heart place has had a sad for a while now – any suggestions on how to fix that?
Tell it like it is….
I’m having a difficult time doing this. For some reason, I’m able to tell it like it should be, like it was, like it could be and like it would be, but I am completely disconnected with telling it like it IS. WTF? Seriously – I am an honest person. I appreciate honesty when someone is speaking with me. I even welcome criticism, albeit constructive. How come I just can’t put my thoughts together enough to simply lay it out????
I have been on a roller coaster of emotions for about a month and a half. I could figure it out to the day, but I choose not to. There are some people in this world that I am unable to communicate with. I know, for a fact, that some individuals are intent on feeding me full lines of bullshit, and I can accept that. That’s how it is in those parts of my life. Why is it that the people who matter are the ones I cannot express my thoughts and feelings with? Why is it that the idea of communication on a real and important level appears to be completely out of their realms of interest?
Sometimes it is necessary to know where you stand in another’s life. Sometimes, it is important to let another person know the level of importance they hold in your own life. This is not a bad thing.
I’m feeling a need to break it down for some someones, and I’m not sure it’s going to come out roses. But, I think I’m okay with that. Given the circumstances of the previous couple of months, I’ve done a pretty good job of completely mind-Fucking myself into confusion. I’d like to be over it. I know that I’m a deserving, worth-while, intelligent human being, and I have to refuse the relationships that do not encourage healthy thought and progressive living. I know this.
My dilemma is this: am I currently encouraging the unhealthy connections and then breaking the healthy ones OR am I on the right path and should I be nurturing the existing situations?
